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what a time I had resetting the password for this thing, I forgot the old one. Oh well, I'm back now, finish uni in 10 days, etc.
News has reached me that my old band have apparently reformed without me and under a new name. Now, provided they don't play my songs, I don't care, but I won't be supporting it. To be frank, the last 6 months in that band were hell. I was pretty much bullied by one member and as is often the case with me the best plan of action would be to get shitfaced drunk and announce my feelings. It worked...I guess. Anyway, I'm betting that this 'new band' won't get past a 'photoshoot' (like every band the other two have tried to start since). Not to get on the ego train, but if you reform an old band an change one member, make it someone like the drummer or maybe the glockenspeil player, just make sure its something no one will really notice. As I was the only guitarist and singer, its going to be noticeable. Not that we were even in the same ballpark, but who has gone to see Sham 69 since they replaced Jimmy Pursey? Nobody. Who saw Black Flag's reunion shows without Henry Rollins? Maybe a few people but unanimous reports say they suck. I may sound bitter but its just because one member was such a fucking arsehole that its difficult for me to see why they other guy would want to be in a band with him ever again, especially when he told me his feelings were the complete opposite.
Musically things are going pretty well for me, I feel like I'm gaining my confidence back. I'm recording my stuff and not cringing when I hear it, which is something new altogether. I've scored two films all by myself and they sound pretty good. I'm still into all the punk music that I've always liked, but over the last few years, Bruce Springsteen has become a bigger and bigger influence on my music. I've got to the point where it frustrates me to hear his music because I know I'll never be as good as him. Nick Cave has also been a huge influence on the soundtrack work, but I've liked him for about four years, and his music is pretty cinematic.
I also thought I'd never say this, but for one of my films, there's been a bit of a hip hop influence. When I listen to pieces like what the RZA did for the Kill Bill soundtrack, it inspires me. There's a lot of little ten second clips of music. I've also started doing a lot of electronic music again, which while I know its terribly hip just now (or a lot hipper than it was when I started five years ago), but it works really well. Gonna program some new pieces tonight and finish off this film, its looking a lot better than it was last week. I always get that kind of Bergman/Allen feeling when I finish a film that I might not ever do another, but like music and poetry, I'm hooked. I'll never stop writing and hopefully filmmaking will be the same.
That was a pretty good update for the last 4 months I guess. Now that I remember my password and all that hopefully there will be a lot more. I read this book called 31 Songs by Nick Hornby a few days ago, its one of the few books I've read all the way through in a day. Anyway, it inspired me. What he does is talk about songs that he loves and why and what they remind him of. I'd love to write about the effect Born to Run has had on me, or maybe even a short story based on the album. I've got a lot of love for it anyway. That's all from me for this time. Thank you for reading this, whoever you may be.